… life lived me like the uncaring wind blowing a leaf.

Irina Enache… actress… My story begins exactly 4 years ago.

I was living awful moments.
My father had died. There was no chance to work.
It is needless to mention here the lack of money.
I didn’t love, I wasn’t loved…

Finally, I now realise that it would have been impossible.

I was smoking… in excess, not anyway.
I would waste all my nights in pubs (I almost don’t want to remember) and then I would waste all my days trying to wake up.

A kind of depression, mixed with moments of hatred, anger (directed against anyone, but especially against God) and despair.
Perhaps the latter is the one that saved me.

In this terrible despair, I felt acutely the need to believe in Something!!
(that is, to find meaning in what seemed, for now, meaningless or… even aberrant).

It was awful to have nothing I could relate to.

Simply… Life lived me as the careless wind blows a leaf.

So one afternoon when I woke up around 3pm (that was my usual wake-up time), I was looking for something on the internet.

I don’t even remember what, it’s not important anymore.

The search showed Abheda Yoga as the first result.

I found it interesting, given that I was looking for something else entirely.
The idea of yoga had attracted me in the past, but I had never had the courage to try, living by some preconceptions and being a comfortable person by nature.

I went to the site, I leafed through the articles… And I called.

I was answered by a man, the one who was to be my master and the one who still plays a great importance in improving my life on all its levels.

I asked if I could sign up, he said yes and so I went to try that too… Because, I was thinking… What else do I have to lose?

And I went to the first class, skeptical and almost certain that I would not return a second time.

I just kept coming back… another 4 years since then.
And I hope to come back every day of my life… with God’s help.

At the first course… I felt something, I didn’t know what it was back then, but in time I found out.

There was warmth, light, and love. And it’s like a sweetness too.

And they were all mixing… and somehow I felt like I had recentered, I felt like I had returned HOME after years and years.

When I remember those first moments, I get a lump in my throat and tears come to my eyes. Even now as I write.

And when I think that I was so close to losing all these wonderful things…

And when you think that sometimes you are just one step away from sublime happiness or, on the contrary, from the most heartbreaking fall …

And from that moment on, my life transformed, brightened. Everything has changed.
I changed my entourage, which was not the brightest.

I started working,

to receive roles and to be able to complete them thanks to divine grace,

I became a vegetarian.

I am no longer a jealous person,

as I used to be,

I became firmer

And I let go of the stupid pride that prevented me from understanding certain precious lessons.
And these are just some of the wonders.

I’m sorry I don’t have a picture from that period. There is a great physical transformation.
My face has brightened, it has become more beautiful, sometimes I somehow feel that I am radiating. And that’s what I’m told, not what I imagine…

I held on to Abheda Yoga with tenacity and I managed to feel the Kundalini intensely and… I felt blessed for its effects.

After a long time, I finally found my soul again. And I learned to love again. And to understand. And to forgive.
And now, I get every day as a miracle.

And I thank Abehda Yoga and Leo Radutz (yoga master) for the special world he showed me. A world I didn’t know and didn’t believe existed.

But the most important thing I feel I have achieved through the practice of Abheda Yoga is to regain faith in God. Total and unconditional…

P.S. I feel the need to add: do not think that I am a “mystical”! I’m talking about God here because it’s a moment of deep truth and in the hope that I can help others. This exhibition is not common to me, and the aspects of faith refer to the deep meaning of life that I found myself practicing Abheda Yoga (which should not be confused with any religion).